I looked for it in the usual places,
were it goes for rest,
were it goes for fun,
even were it tends to hide.
It took me a while to find out
that I had lost it.
At the same time
it's bigger than ever,
now that it knew unconditionally.
I'm still not sure if I lose it or missed it.
Maybe it was too heavy.
The worst part is wanting to get it back,
and at the same time doubt it,
because it hurts just to think of putting it back were it belongs.
So I'll stay, very quiet, and wait, and hope,
that nothing changes.